Hi.. as you know I haven’t posted in a while. I am going through one of those times in my life when I am needing a major change. I love blogging and I intend to continue, don’t worry. But Roger and I are looking to take steps in our relationship to progress, the end goal being marriage and children.
Since being on House of DVF I have been thinking a lot about how to improve myself, and I have already made some changes. I am not saying what you saw on House of DVF was accurate or inaccurate.. I’m sure if you asked my family they would say most of what you saw was not an accurate example of me but one thing was spot on; Diane always said I needed to stop blaming other people and she was right. So, I am trying to stop blaming other people.
I really want to take responsibility for everything in my life and one thing I always have an excuse for is why my house is such a mess. My house growing up was a mess, my sister’s house is more often than not, a mess. Messy houses run in the family I guess. I blamed my mom, I blamed the size of our home, I blamed my boyfriend. The fact of the matter is though, that Roger’s house was hotel-esq and totally clutter free before I moved in, so it has to be me. To look at me you may not guess that I am a messy person, but unfortunately, I am. I try not to be messy, but I don’t really know how to keep my house in order. I have kind of always thought that I would just grow up and make enough money to hire a house keeper, and I would have a “big enough” house that I wouldn’t have clutter because there would be enough room for everything, but realistically it doesn’t matter how much space I have, I always find a way to fill it.
Moving forward with our relationship is something I could not be more excited about.. I desperately want to be a mother but I don’t want to pass on my bad habits. I want to “fix” my issues with blaming others, my temper, and be able to keep a clean and clutter free home before I have kids so I don’t impose my issues onto them.
This last few days I listened to “The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up” by Marie Kondo and I plan to implement it right away, but I felt I needed to write this to let you know that I won’t be blogging until I am done, at which point I plan to share my experience. The book makes some pretty intense claims about former clients never having a relapse (reverting to a messy home), ever. It also claims that because you learn what truly brings you joy your life changes in more ways than just having a clean house.. we’ll see.
Thank you for being patient.
With love from Hollywood,
Kier
It is great that you are being so open! Definitely take time to find yourself and when you come back, blogging will be even more enjoyable knowing everything else in your life is smooth.
Omnivogues
Good on you, Kier! I’m the same way, and am afraid that I’ll pass on those bad habits to my daughter as well. I’m going to get this book asap. I’m really excited for you and Roger though – becoming a parent is literally the BEST decision of my life. I look forward to reading about your experiences! :) Do you think you’ll blog about baby fashion too when that time comes? Because that would be SO fun! :)
Everything about you to me has always been very real. I love that you can learn from things in your own past and your family’s past and try to be better and grow. Never apologize for needing time for yourself. The blog will always be here when you get back. Being inspired by successful, confident women is what this is all about. Diane inspired you, and you have inspired me. You are living proof that even the most glamorous ladies need a break. I hope this does you good and you can focus on the good and bad in your life. Much love. (:
So honest and so real, good luck!
Good luck babe! Hope to see you soon!
xoxo,
Laura
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